“Time heals, so I know I have a guardian angel.” MELISSA
I GUESS I GOT LUCKY. In 2005, a couple of CitiWide workers knocked on my door at the single residence occupancy (S.R.O.) hotel where I was staying, and asked if I’d like to join their support groups. Of course, I said “no” at first. At that time, I was all about ripping and running, and doing negative stuff. When I finally decided to check out CitiWide, the only thing I wanted to do was sleep on the couches. I wasn’t ready to change. Then, one staff member told me something that just clicked in my head, and I started going to groups regularly – maybe not every day, but twice a week at least. I was still dirty and dusty then, but I began learning about things like HASA and entitlements that helped me transform my life.
Right now, I come to CitiWide six days a week to do groups. I’m in the second cycle of Safety Counts too; it’s a good program – it helps me manage the way I have sex, so that I’m safer. I’ve also started working as a peer intern for Herizen, which has given me a lot of good information that I can use in the field. I hope to God they give me a little peer position here after I graduate!
I’m forty-one years old, and I’m still struggling with my addiction. I guess I would consider myself a “chronic relapser.” But since I’ve been coming to CitiWide, I’ve started to use a whole lot less, and taking better care of my health. All in all, CitiWide has opened my eyes to a lot of things. I’ve learned how to protect myself here. Time heals, so I know I have a guardian angel.
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